So, this is it…no more rewriting, editing, pre-sale, debating whether or not to chicken out and pull the whole plug during the pre-sale. As of this morning, January 10, 2018, my memoir is available to the public and has begun shipping to those who have already ordered it. There is no turning back from telling my story now.
When I was a little kid, one of my first career goals was to be an author of books. At that point, I was going to create some kind of series with clever character like my favorite authors Judy Blume or Beverly Clearly did. I would never have guessed that it would take 30 years and be a non-fiction book about my descent into pornography addiction.
I would have been excited about the premise for much of the book. I launch a successful magazine in my hometown, win in my first attempt at public office and co-create what MovieMaker Magazine once called one of the “25 Coolest Film Festivals in America.” Never would I have imagined I could have so royally destroyed things.
Immediately after I was arrested, I thought to myself, “If I could have actually tried to screw things up worse, could I?” At that point, in my self-loathing and self-pity, I didn’t think so.
I saw myself as a guy who never addressed the demons of abuse from being a little kid, let himself develop a hefty alcohol problem, became a raging narcissist, alienated my family, ignored my well-established mental health needs and watched as a business I worked hard to create circled the drain. Oh yeah, and I began talking to women in chat rooms, sometimes leading to inappropriate sexual exchanges. Thank God the police got involved or I’d be dead.
Today, with this book on the market after more than 18 months of work, it’s my first major step toward setting things right. I have many goals with the book but the overall theme of those goals is to spread some good in the world.
I don’t ask much, but if you were ever going to consider picking up one of my books, today is a good time. I don’t know exactly how the book world works, but for whatever reason, both Amazon and BarnesandNoble.com are selling my book today at about 35% off. You can get it for around $11.50. Thanks for giving it some thought.